The Past Shadows the Future

How did we go from strangers to such close friends? I don't think I would have given into your words if you didn't tell me your entire past. But it seems like its too much for others to bear. I can't hold your past against you. I know you want the support and encouragement to change but i realized that i may not be able to do that for you. I would be a hypocrite if i gave up on you... I'm just praying for the courage and bravery. 

I've always ran from the things that frightened me but i don't wanna run again. This situation isn't going to get better. It's going to only get worse. How do i break this news to you when i cant even accept this myself. They're warning me to stay away but it just makes it harder. If i turn my back on you then i would be a quitter and it would make me lack faith whenever i face difficult situations. What is a good guy? 

You've learnt, you've laid low, you've shown interest in God. I can't imagine what it would be like to lose a soul for the Kingdom of God. I wouldn't be helpful... i would just be another brick in the wall. How do i turn this around? Show people that the past doesn't define a person. Why can i let go of the past so easily but others make it a big deal. I'm sure there have been drug dealers, prisoners and cocaine addicts who have found the Lord and changed their life and minister to people every day. Christians may possess all the qualities of a good man but lack all of a good companion. Should i let go?