Alone, Yet Not Alone

I've defended you to only look like a fool over and over again. I'm living a nightmare right now. But bad dreams don't always last for long. I happened to be cornered by the struggles of life all by myself. God is always there with me, that's why I said I'm not alone.

The person that claims to love me is fighting me the hardest. I can't get over that. I should be at ease. I'm supposed to be at rest. I'm supposed to feel good about myself, not like I can't go on anymore. The pressure is so much that I feel like I'm about to break down. I'm holding myself together with one thread. 

You're not even proving yourself. You're just being the same old you. I can't live with that. Not now or in the future. I've stopped trying to explain myself. Whatever people want to believe, let them. I owe nobody anything. What's the point speaking if nobody hears you? This time I'm done. I'm just too tired. There is no going back.