The Tides

Ever feel as though your life depends on how you feel? Sometimes i make really bad decisions which i have to deal with after and most of the times innocent people get hurt. How do you let down someone easily without breaking their heart? Everybody expects me to be the "perfect one" but how can i pull it off? 

Trying to hide my emotions is the worst thing ever. I'm boiling over right now. I don't know whether to feel sad or to completely withdraw myself from everyone who may be a potential harm to my relationship. What do i do next? What do i have to lose? All these questions all left unanswered. Jesus, I need You!

It almost like every time i get in a relationship, after 3 months, things just spin out of proportion. I am breaking this chain. I will stay committed and i will be the best i can be until God says otherwise. Obedience is better than sacrifice. Patience is what God wants me to exercise. I just need to sit back, breathe and be close to Jesus who will work all things out for my good...