There is a guy... oh there is a guy. "Doc, I think I may be sick.. Can you check me out?"
Ridiculous much? That's me not caring how I sound being all girly and screaming internally every time I see his face. He is so handsome with the best smile ever. He is gentle and kind and speaks with such confidence to all his patients. I woke up from a nap to find myself in a daze because the feeling was so real. I think I was about to make my move when it all ended. Bam. A mosquito flew up my nose and I woke up by force.
A girl can daydream at a nice guy... It doesn't always have to lead to somewhere but you always need that eye candy to go through that perfect stormy day. I don't know if he notices how I stare at him like he is a piece of cheesecake. Damn..
Just the thought of it has me falling.. Or does he remind me of someone from my past? Stay tuned.
As they roll down my warm cheek, I remember the times when I didn't have the burdens of adulthood to worry about. I don't know what's worse, working two jobs and balancing school or trying to make a life outside of this shell. It almost seems as thought there is a web holding me back and I'm the poor miserable fly looking for a way out. It doesn't matter how I feel. All I know is that I have to make it in this life.
People who I thought was there for me isn't. I open up to people and they just move on with their life. I think people are starting to become even more selfish than before.I'm exhausted. I'm worn out... I'm overworked and underpaid. I can't seem to be happy no matter what I do. But this is just a temporary situation and I know that. The hardest part is faking a smile to show everyone that it's all ok when its not.
I'm doing this career as though I'm a robot. I feel as though my life and joy is being sucked out of my body. I just need an escape. I plan to be the best at everything I do so making a change in careers isn't gonna put me down. Sometimes we go through our whole lives doing what is expected and not what the heart really wants. These tears will not fall in vain...
