Its like filling a bucket with holes with water. The water keeps coming out and nothing can stay in. Sometimes the decisions we make might seem like a re-occurrence.. like its a cycle just waiting to come back and hit you in the face. I learnt that pushing people away isn't something we should do. Rejection doesn't feel good. Imagine if i was placed in that position where all i received was no.
I am not going to act like i don't need anybody. Its been 3 or more days now and still no reply. It should not affect me but it does. My thoughts always run back to you. My memories are tattooed and i can almost hear your laughter again. I made such a fuss over something God can fix with time. But... at the end of the day, i did the right thing. You don't always get what you want.. Sometimes you have to use the knowledge and wisdom of God than to run with emotions. Emotions can lead you to a place of permanency based on your temporary emotion led decisions. If i said no to one person, i don't think i am ready to say yes to another... at least not yet...
Can i laugh now? Because this is just too hilarious.
What do you do when someone tells you one thing and shows you another? How do you show you care about someone? Do you just tell them and then make crazy decisions?
I won't lie to myself. The past few days have been hard. The joy is slowly fading. It's like a routine. Wake up, put on a face and go about showing the public that things are just 'fine'. What is fine? I try to convince myself that i'm fine all the time. But i'm not. LITERALLY nothing is going right.
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A man can vow and say he will be by your side and care for you and love you with every last breath in his body but that is not always true. You can't change people's minds. Only God can work through you to make a person change for the better. What force is greater than God? Nothing can compare. I've learnt that i don't need company to make myself happy. Just a simple stroll. Just some time in the Word of God.
Who goes to a movie theater and sits by themself and watches the movie? Me.. Who entertains themself? Me.. Who is trying her best to motivate herself to reach her goals? Me. I am not the product of anyone on earth. I am highly favored and Blessed. My season is yet to come.....
Where do we find love?
Love isn't something bought, stolen or borrowed. It's either you have it or not. Sometimes we think that we have to find love when the fact is we have to let love find us. Taking your time to fall in love with someone is better than getting in a relationship and then trying to sort out the pieces.
Some people waste time trying to be the best they can be and put out their all for a relationship when they should be focusing on friendship. A friend is someone you can trust, confide in, turn to for comfort, show love without it being awkward and so much more. So why not fall for a friend or best friend than a total stranger? If you have issues making friends, then a relationship is not for you. That's that.
Its good to explore. Try a new approach. If you are used to having $500 dates, then try a date where you spend only $50 or even no money. Just a walk in the park or a face-to-face conversation. There is no harm in getting to know a person for their personality instead of their wallet. A real genuine person will prefer something abstract which can be memorable than something that can be devoured or thrown away.
The key lies in the hands of the one who can take their time to learn how to love you instead of trying to convince you that they already do..
Mystery.. Just mystery..
How can she explain how she feels if she is afraid to fall? There is only one heart filled with the love of a thousand but she chooses to give it to one. That special one. How can she be sure?
Time. Waiting doesn't mean hiding. It means patience will teach you how to love over a period of time and not just now for now. You have to be able to love with all of you. Just as John Legend says in his song. You have to have that one person who you would call at 3 am just to be the first person they talk to ...
Breaths. If you cannot find the words to say just breathe. If he already knows then he is smart enough to read your lips, facial expression and your energy. Taking time to be silent during cute convos are quite natural. It also gives you time to stare at his wonderfully made face.
Dreams. What we do when we can't act out our emotions. We can imagine all the good things that we want to happen and make it happen later. Never rush, never worry. All good things will come, you just have to keep the dream alive.
Ever feel as though your life depends on how you feel? Sometimes i make really bad decisions which i have to deal with after and most of the times innocent people get hurt. How do you let down someone easily without breaking their heart? Everybody expects me to be the "perfect one" but how can i pull it off?
Trying to hide my emotions is the worst thing ever. I'm boiling over right now. I don't know whether to feel sad or to completely withdraw myself from everyone who may be a potential harm to my relationship. What do i do next? What do i have to lose? All these questions all left unanswered. Jesus, I need You!
It almost like every time i get in a relationship, after 3 months, things just spin out of proportion. I am breaking this chain. I will stay committed and i will be the best i can be until God says otherwise. Obedience is better than sacrifice. Patience is what God wants me to exercise. I just need to sit back, breathe and be close to Jesus who will work all things out for my good...
How do you respond to your own flesh and blood condemning your relationship? The Lord knows how bad it hurts especially when things are working out for her. She expects people to live up to her expectations as if she is in the relationship with this person.
I am sure i am awake and not sleeping through life. I know where i stand with people especially my boyfriend. Why would i take advice from people who have no legit excuse of why i shouldn't be with someone.
Lord i ask that you guide me through this rough patch because i do not know what is happening on the outside. People are supposed to be helping you and allowing God to work in your life but it seems as though people are making themselves God. You cannot determine anyone's future. You cannot prevent anybody from getting hurt even if it's a word of encouragement because if Jesus wants that to happen to be a lesson to the person, it is inevitable. Who are you to declare yourself high and mighty just because you are in a progressing relationship.
My words are: THE DEVIL IS A LIAR. What Jesus wants to happen, it shall come to pass. I am careful of what I do and how i do it now. I am a work in progress because the Lord isn't finished with molding me how he wants me to be. I just need the negativity to go away or stay away from me because I am a child of God and I'm too old for this.
Psalms 23:5 "Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over."
Sometimes, you just gotta stop what you're doing and say thank you Jesus!
I've gotten so far from where i started since i joined my new church. I have a great joy in where i stand right now. I feel as if i'm a balloon floating in the air. Even though the rainy stormy days may come, i will keep my peace and be still because i know i'm a child of the King.
Working up the courage to tell someone something u have been holding back for so long is fulfilling. I never expected this response. I believe that something great is gonna happen and i already receive it. I just want to be the best i can be so that when the time comes for judgement, my name will be in the book of life. The Lord has a plan and i believe that he will seal all his people and protect them from the worst.
A prophet of the Jesus spoke to me today and told me there is a tsunami coming. He said he got more than one visions. It opened my eyes to make sure my heart is pure and of good nature so i will bow down before the Lord in Heaven one day. It could be tomorrow or next year, all i know is i can say for myself, I belong to Jesus and I will see the gates of Heaven.
