Putting My Defenses up

I have no shame in saying i'm afraid to fall hard for this dude. He is my really good friend but I can't take the chance without thinking. I kind of got of on the wrong foot with his best friend because i didn't introduce myself and now i'm having a guilt trip. 

I don't wanna feel confused but I am. Its pretty clear that we're on the same page but I just don't know how i'm stuck. I'm feeling to run away from this whole connection thing but i can't let him down like that. I don't know how to make my move. Should i let him bounce like a basketball? Cuz i don't wanna play him like a Ken doll.. 

I think fear of falling in love is the worst kind of fear there is...