So my sister's wedding was Saturday 20, and I met this good looking dude there who was one of the groomsmen. He seems like a nice person but he doesn't seem serious to me. Nate, my really good friend likes me, also a dude from my science class.
I'm not gonna choose anyone at all. Why should I? I'm not ready for something short term and meaningless. I gotta know that person for at least a year before I become their "girlfriend" I don't think people are real these days. It always seem too good to be true. All I can do is just close my eyes and pray for that right person someday. For now, I'm exploring my options while keeping everyone happy.
I'm not leading anyone on because "love" hasn't been thrown out by me before. Time will tell. .
I don't know why but i'm starting to like one of the guys who worked with me. I thought i liked that dude from science class but i was wrong. It was just an eye contact likeness.
This dude is amazing. He is a gentleman, hardworking, honest, helpful, great at cooking, passionate. I don't even wanna go on cuz i might go into a trance.
Hopefully he will accept my facebook request soon and we'll chat?
Hmm.. Sometimes i don't really know if i'm being delusional or myself. I feel a likeness for certain people who i talk to and i cant explain it. What is up with me and guys from my science class?
One of them is two shy to talk to me in class and the other is too atheist and outspoken to give a damn. Should i let my guards down and be nice with boys or should i just draw a line and seem like a boring straight line kinda girl?
I dont know why people just like to talk to me sometimes. I feel so happy knowing that my good friend and new 'friends' are there. My heart holds so many hidden passageways that i myself cant find. I try to not develop feelings for people but i guess some of the things they say to me make me like them. But liking someone and loving someone is different. Right now, the word love should only be used for Jesus until the right person comes along.
Just to add, today i finally met a guy who is Christian, can cook and is hardworking! Wow. Hope he is still around when i'm ready for a boyfriend lol
Lost? Tired of searching? Alone?
Jesus is the answer. He will never ever fail you even when times seem hopeless. I have learnt that there is much more to life than being afraid of what people think. Taking that big step makes you a bigger person and unequal to everyone else.
Jesus keeps me breathing, keeps me hopeful, keeps me proud and confident and will always be my everything. I am no longer afraid of death or being alone because He is there for me. Church is my place of worship and our great teachers spread his name about and makes me joyous. I rather be in church than a nightclub any day.
I have a big personality, sometimes too much for people to handle. But Jesus accepts me for who i am and never judges me based on my decisions. He just teaches me not to make the same mistake and to make him proud. I am a believer and he is my God.
