Why can't you just leave me alone? You're always there..If not in my head, in front of me. I feel as though you never left. I hate to admit it but I miss you. You were this big part of me and now you're nothing. I just have to guess.
Sometimes I just wanna scream! Why did I mess up so bad? How does someone hang onto you for so long? I was supposed to be savage this year. I was supposed to leave everything we had in 2016. And you're here now and it's like a huge pill I can't swallow. I just have to let go and let God take control of this whole situation. The one that I really want I can't be with because of our differences. It's too drastic to accept. Confirmation was made. The fact of the matter was accepted.
So here I am. Willing to go down the road again of taking steps on my own.
Ever had your heart ripped out with a short story? Ever feel as though you went back in time and watched the story actually take place? Maybe it's my anxiety but I know for sure that this was not appropriate. You can tell your guy friend that or even a friend who is a girl. How would you feel if I started telling you a story about some other guy and how we used to be and the stuff we used to do. Makes me feel you want that person?
Somehow, everyone always show me eventually why I chose to go down the road I'm on. What else is there to hold on to? Guys always find the dumbest things to say at the worst times. I don't even know anymore. You can give your all and still be let down and by what? One story.
So I know him for a while now. It's been years. I should be willing to fall into his arms right away without questioning it but words are very important. That's why you must choose it wisely.
"Family is very important to me, but I'll make time for you". What does that tell you? You're going to give up a chance of love to please your family? Everyone else is basically building a future of their own. Everyone in your family is getting married and having babies. This is the same reason people go off on a murdering spree and kill people for messing with their feelings and emotions. Good thing I'm one of the good ones.
I don't think I'm mental. I think I'm logical. Time is something you cannot get back ever. If you want to waste your own time partying, being everywhere with everyone then go right ahead. I'm going to be sipping my glass of wine at the top of the staircase waiting for you to say something stupid again. #TEAMSAVAGE
