It may seem like i'm being heartless... that i should be all emotional because I just got out of a relationship but i feel great. I mean... great guy, great treatment, great love shared but it was not for me.
People will judge and say I'm just a heartbreaker.... i'm just another girl who is lost and confused and doesn't know what she wants. But really and truly, i do not know what i want. If i had everything under control then i wouldn't be living. I feel as though i'm able to clear my mind and to sort out exactly how i feel and it is what i suspected. The feelings never left.
Not one day passed by i didnt think of him. The memories were beautiful.. Nothing could replace him. Why talk so much about him? Because he left a mark. I was mean for leaving things unfinished. I was wrong for thinking i was spiting him and showing him how a 'real man' makes decisions. I never thought about the part where i have to miss the drives to the park, the adventures, the simple little moments together.. I gave it all up and now i want it all back..
I starting all over with a new mindset, a new goal, a new everything. Maybe a new career? Life throws so many opportunities at you.. It's up to you if you wanna let it slip away or hold on and pray for the best to come...
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