Putting My Defenses up

I have no shame in saying i'm afraid to fall hard for this dude. He is my really good friend but I can't take the chance without thinking. I kind of got of on the wrong foot with his best friend because i didn't introduce myself and now i'm having a guilt trip. 

I don't wanna feel confused but I am. Its pretty clear that we're on the same page but I just don't know how i'm stuck. I'm feeling to run away from this whole connection thing but i can't let him down like that. I don't know how to make my move. Should i let him bounce like a basketball? Cuz i don't wanna play him like a Ken doll.. 

I think fear of falling in love is the worst kind of fear there is... 

Top 10 Prettiest Women

Well its past midnight so i figured why not make a top ten list of the prettiest women? (Not in order though) Straight to the point...

Rachel McAdams  

Zoe Saldana

Jessica Alba

Jacqueline MacInnes Wood

Scarlett Johansson

Gwen Stefani

Shakira

Tyra Banks

Ashley Greene

Elizabeth Banks

So there you go... The top 10 Prettiest Women in my opinion.. Not teens or Little girls. 

Reigna's Hair Picks- Updated

So I have tried the moisturizing hair lotion "African Gold" and i thought i loved it but it wasn't really working the way i wanted it to. It was too clunky and when applied to my hair, would not comb through easily.

So i decided i was gonna switch to a new product (For the last time). So i found this little magic called Soft Sheen Carson Moisturizing Finishing Lotion and i have loved it ever since. The Humectant also works very well but the size of the bottle is just not fit for ALL my hair. This lotion moisturizes and shines and keeps frizz away for hours. It gives a silky soft feel and makes combing easier. 

After using this , you can always add a little Soft and Silky Gel to slick your edges and keep your curls in place without the breakage and damage. However these products should not be used with heat. 

These Clear Lines

Robin Thicke has blurred lines, but my lines are pretty clear. I got an awesome new best friend, who is caring, loving, determined and wonderfully attracted to moi .. 

I'm not gonna take big steps at this time of my life but I will definitely consider him when I'm ready to take that step. And of course, wherever there is something good, there are always jealous people around trying to tear down a good foundation but i won't let them. They don't deserve it. 

Working hard for something you want is always rewarding and for those people who think otherwise of me, I can't wait to prove them wrong. I'm gonna send some of my co-workers on such a hard guilt trip, they're gonna need more than a few beers after work to pick them back up. I may be speaking in riddles for now, but when i'm finished these lines will be as clear as possible. ;) 

3 Guys, No Thanks

So my sister's wedding was Saturday 20, and I met this good looking dude there who was one of the groomsmen. He seems like a nice person but he doesn't seem serious to me. Nate, my really good friend likes me, also a dude from my science class. 

I'm not gonna choose anyone at all. Why should I? I'm not ready for something short term and meaningless. I gotta know that person for at least a year before I become their "girlfriend" I don't think people are real these days. It always seem too good to be true. All I can do is just close my eyes and pray for that right person someday. For now, I'm exploring my options while keeping everyone happy. 

I'm not leading anyone on because "love" hasn't been thrown out by me before. Time will tell. .

It's Probably Because of Summer

I don't know why but i'm starting to like one of the guys who worked with me. I thought i liked that dude from science class but i was wrong. It was just an eye contact likeness. 

This dude is amazing. He is a gentleman, hardworking, honest, helpful, great at cooking, passionate. I don't even wanna go on cuz i might go into a trance. 

Hopefully he will accept my facebook request soon and we'll chat? 

Mysteries of My Heart

Hmm.. Sometimes i don't really know if i'm being delusional or myself. I feel a likeness for certain people who i talk to and i cant explain it. What is up with me and guys from my science class? 

One of them is two shy to talk to me in class and the other is too atheist and outspoken to give a damn. Should i let my guards down and be nice with boys or should i just draw a line and seem like a boring straight line kinda girl? 

I dont know why people just like to talk to me sometimes. I feel so happy knowing that my good friend and new 'friends' are there. My heart holds so many hidden passageways that i myself cant find. I try to not develop feelings for people but i guess some of the things they say to me make me like them. But liking someone and loving someone is different. Right now, the word love should only be used for Jesus until the right person comes along. 

Just to add, today i finally met a guy who is Christian, can cook and is hardworking! Wow. Hope he is still around when i'm ready for a boyfriend lol