We are two grown people and it doesn't matter how old I get, I will always be judged by people who claim their lives are perfect inside out.
We can never be too sure about anyone. It's only if i give up on you, then you would realize i don't care about you enough to wait and see what you can do. But no, they judge. They want to say something bad about someone they don't know a thing about.
Sometimes i wish my family was a good bunch. The ones who accept things for what they are instead of shoving a heapful of "advice" down your throat everything you do something on your own. Sometimes i feel like i need an escape but i dont wanna run away. How do i cope with the bitterness of the judgements and still keep a happy face for the one who likes to see me smile?
Humans are very funny beings... They should be glad you're going for better and being happy but instead they take joy in your pain. They just want something bad to happen to come to your face and say, "I told you so."
Yeah, my life isn't crystal clear at this moment but someday i'll be able to make my decisions without hearing all these whispering behind the curtains.
I don't know what "get to know me" period is this, but i'm sick of it. I can't stand not hearing from you and you act like its nothing.
You make me so mad and at the same time I love you. You think this is helping me in any way but it's not. You're just tearing me up inside. I'm gonna show you exactly how it feels. No phone calls, no texts, no replies. I might as well give you your "get to know you" space because it seems like you really need it.
Don't expect me to be ok with all your decisions. Sometimes you think of me more than yourself and sometimes you misjudge while doing that. I already told you, you do not affect me negatively and I need to hear from you. But since you disagree I guess you'll have to come find me.....
So you got a call from work saying that you will be moving to the other branch... It hit me like a bullet. I don't think i wan't that distance between us.
What we have was built day by day and i feel like the managers and bosses don't appreciate and understand that. They decided they want you far away and you can't complain. I'm holding on to you because it's what you do when you truly love someone.
When you just broke the news you showed me you were so strong and was there for me like a good man would be for the sake of his woman but when we were apart, you broke. I wasn't there to tell you that it would be alright and that i'm here for you. But i think you know i'm here. Who else will answer your call at 4 in the morning?
Don't let this distance get between us. Lets use it as a fuel and motivation to push forward. Stay strong and keep your faith in God. This is the first time i'm saying this in my blog but boy, i'm crazy for you...
What do you do when you keep pushing someone away even though they show they care for you more than other things? What if you're not accustomed to being treated like a princess and when it happens, you take it for granted and then its gone.
I don't want to keep acting this way. I need to learn to get over little things instead of holding on and going to bed on a bad note. I can't see myself caring for someone else the way i care for you. I know you're rethinking everything that is going on right now but i ask that you do not rethink me.
I can fix myself and come clean. No stress, no mess, no low tolerance. I just need to show you how much i care. I can't have this silence between us or this wall that you're starting again. I helped you tear the wall down and i feel like i'm helping you rebuild it just by acting selfish and bratty.
Just because i'm young, it doesn't mean i'm not capable of being with you. It just means i have a lot to learn and i am willing to do that. Just hold on, don't let me go............
I'm still up at past midnight and you're probably in your bed sleeping. I just can't sleep because you're on my mind. I think about everything about you and it makes me smile. Even when you get me mad i still smile.
Your heart connects with mine and its something special. The night before, you stayed up because you were thinking of me. Now the tables have turned and i understand what its like now.
Its that great feeling that we can conquer the world together if we stick by one another. I miss your voice though. I need to stop holding back and be daring and bold and text you at 1 am just to tell you sweet nothings.
I'm so glad God lead me to someone who isn't afraid to stand out. If I called you now and told you to come to my house i'm sure you would. If you weren't with me right now in my heart, i'd just be wasting my time staying up this late when i have work in the morning.
