What do you do when you keep pushing someone away even though they show they care for you more than other things? What if you're not accustomed to being treated like a princess and when it happens, you take it for granted and then its gone.
I don't want to keep acting this way. I need to learn to get over little things instead of holding on and going to bed on a bad note. I can't see myself caring for someone else the way i care for you. I know you're rethinking everything that is going on right now but i ask that you do not rethink me.
I can fix myself and come clean. No stress, no mess, no low tolerance. I just need to show you how much i care. I can't have this silence between us or this wall that you're starting again. I helped you tear the wall down and i feel like i'm helping you rebuild it just by acting selfish and bratty.
Just because i'm young, it doesn't mean i'm not capable of being with you. It just means i have a lot to learn and i am willing to do that. Just hold on, don't let me go............
I'm still up at past midnight and you're probably in your bed sleeping. I just can't sleep because you're on my mind. I think about everything about you and it makes me smile. Even when you get me mad i still smile.
Your heart connects with mine and its something special. The night before, you stayed up because you were thinking of me. Now the tables have turned and i understand what its like now.
Its that great feeling that we can conquer the world together if we stick by one another. I miss your voice though. I need to stop holding back and be daring and bold and text you at 1 am just to tell you sweet nothings.
I'm so glad God lead me to someone who isn't afraid to stand out. If I called you now and told you to come to my house i'm sure you would. If you weren't with me right now in my heart, i'd just be wasting my time staying up this late when i have work in the morning.
He kissed me in the parking lot and asked me if I knew what a kiss on the lips meant. I didn't want to answer because i did not want to show that emotion to that extent. But I told him over text.
He makes loving him so easy. I don't need to do a lot to please him and he understands me so well. Everyday is a new thing with us. The connection is like no other.
I'm shy because i want to do everything right that will make you happy. I can't stand the thought of messing things up between us. You already assured me that you're not giving up on me and I did the same. So it looks like we're stuck with each other..........
How can you hurt someone without even knowing? Am i that lost in my fantasy world?
Rumors have been spreading around work and I have been denying it but now you tell me that the rumors are starting to become reality. I feel like a fool. I don't wanna lead you on and then sink your ship.
You're Superman and i'm kryptonite. I've tried staying far away to prevent even the slightest feeling of hurt because i know your heart can't take it but i allowed myself to become attached to you. And you did the same... and now i realize that it was a mistake. I should have never let you in because now its hurting you.
My heart isn't ready... I just need you to see that. I don't want to let you go but i won't be your kryptonite anymore.
With our past experiences, we can't help but guard our hearts. Funny thing about it, we act like we already trust each other with our hearts... and that's a great thing.
You know what you have to do for yourself and you improve. I love to see you take care of yourself for once instead of making other people your top priority and leaving yourself out. Your walls are still up but i'm helping you take them down one brick at a time.
Time will heal and as the song goes , "We're not broken just bent and we can learn to love again." A true quote sung by a total maniac. The Lord has plans for us, we just have to take this thing that we have step by step.
I'm noticing a change in you... And i like it. I just hope all goes well because i don't want that wall to go up and stay.
As the days go by I feel like I'm frozen solid. My feet cannot move because your grip is tight. You don't want me to forget you and I feel the same.
How do I know that? Because i feel like we're communicating right now without even speaking. I wish i could hear from you now. Just one phone call.
Valentines day is tomorrow and every girl is wishing for either a boyfriend, love or a box of chocolates and roses. All i want is to see you, hold you in my arms and know that you're back from your trip.
My heart is always thinking about you, no matter how much i concentrate on other things. The fact that you're not near makes me feel insane. I cannot move on .. I'd rather wait. Because you're worth it....
You said you was leaving and from the minute you spoke of it, I wanted to cry. I've only gotten to know you a bit and I wanna know more about you. It's so hard to think of you being away from me.
You said you may not come back from the other country and I really hope and pray that you do. I understand that you need time and space to do something for yourself and your family so I can't be selfish. As I write this now, you're probably boarding your flight.. All I wish for, is for you to show up at my gate at this very minute but I know that won't happen.
How can you just let people walk away from you when they have impacted your life greatly? No matter how far you are I'll be waiting for you. Even if you decide you don't wanna return i'll still keep some hope because I know all things are possible through Christ.
You said you're a wanderer, so now its time for you to spread your wings and fly. I hope you find everything you're searching for. I got you.
