So, there is this girl in my class who thinks she is above everybody else when she is clearly not. I don't wanna trash talk her or anything but I can't help but think that she is a two-tongued snake.
She is in my science class and we're in a group together and today she thought it was okay to tell me I was boring and annoying. The amount of insults I could of told her, I would have surely sinned my soul. Well i held it together instead, being the mature person that i am and i just let it fly.
However, i think this girl is jealous more than hateful against me. I know a lot of stuff and she is stuck in high school in her head. She even admitted that her spelling is whack. I don't wanna say that i'm better than her, cuz that would be wrong. All i got to say is: People will always dislike you just because you're doing good and having fun while doing so. I hope i never have to work with her again for the safety of my attitude. EVER.
So there is this guy.. Like how many of my stories start up... but anyways. He shocked me. When we went to high school together he was the total opposite of what he is now. He was into the worldly activities and stuff but now he is a Christian and encouraging people to serve the Lord.
I'm not complaining at all. I love what he is doing. But there is something scary that i remembered that isnt so scary after all. When we got our results from high school, he was so amazed that i passed all my subject that he told me, "Marry me" because of that situation. It was a joke obviously but now i feel happy. Wouldn't it be weird if a joke actually turned out real? ahahahahahahaha ._.
He is much more attractive just by being a Christian. I'm not saying i like him, what i'm trying to say is... i admire him. he is so brave and not afraid to stand out from his group of friends who may not be Christians. Serving Jesus is the best thing someone can do and i look forward to having chats with this guy.
This science teacher gave us an assignment to do where we have to find things in life and bring out the science from it. I came up with a few great ideas and he told me that won't work. What the heck am i supposed to do?
I feel like over the years my creativity has increased but i'm not getting the chance to show it. I am so frustrated right now and don't know what to do. Our group got a dumbass topic on herbal medicine which is total crap. I want to do something more fun.
My advice: If you have a science project to do and the topic sucks, scream! Don't hold it in. And after you are done with screaming, suck it up and do your part in the groupwork and get it over with.
My time hasn't reached as yet but when it does, I wanna be completely honest. I'm talking about meeting that dream guy.
My kind of guy most likely will have the nerdy look, great personality and much more. I don't like introducing myself to a new person I like without letting them know what they are getting into though. The next person I meet, I wanna lay it all out on the table.
"Hi, I'm a Christian and I am not willing to change my beliefs for you or anybody else." A little too harsh? I wouldn't say. I think its good to let the person know that you're serious and not just looking for a fling. I want that person to know me very well... to be my best friend before becoming anything more than that.
I don't see what's the big deal in saying what you wanna say. Everybody always hides something at first and then comes clean later on when things are going great. Well my friends, big mistake if you do that. I just want somebody to accept me 100%, around my same age and willing to see past my flaws. Meeting new people is always scary for me, but I will wait patiently for that special someone I will spend the rest of my life with.
There are some hot/good looking guys that I want to give out imaginary awards to. Here they are: The hottest guys of June 2013:
Vincent Cyr from Youtube
Nolan Gerard Funk
Greg Onision
Darin Brooks
Talk about eye candy!! More coming when I spot more hotties..
This isn't a One Direction song but all I wanna say is: Get out get out get outta my head!
This dude from my Science class won't leave me alone. He isn't stalking me or anything, at least not in person, but in my mind. I really wish I could stop thinking about him so damn much.
Bummer number 1: He is an atheist which is completely opposite in what I believe in.
Bummer number 2: He has very strong views and doesn't seem like the type of person to change for just some girl.
I don't expect him to change his views because of me because I am surely never gonna do that for him. I'm not gonna be a Christian today and atheist tomorrow. Not at all. No matter how geekishly hot this dude is, I can't like him. That's it. But it won't stop his image from flooding my mind though.
So I had this dream... a crazy dream that I didn't think would actually happen. Yesterday at college, I was sitting on the hallway floor next to my classroom which was occupied at that moment and this random guy in his nurse trainee uniform walked up to me, touched my knee and said: "I like your chair."
I giggled and awkwardly said: "Thanks" because I didn't know how else to reply. All I can think about now is how pretty his eyes were and I didn't even get to look at them for long.
Anyways, I always see this dude around the campus but never really pay him any attention. So what did this dream mean? Maybe the guy in the hallway will tell me someday...
Today in class, it made me realize how normal everybody else is and how weird I am. I don't hate being a weird person... I love it. It doesn't matter what he or she says. It's up to me to be myself or to pretend to be someone else.
I am the type of person to make people laugh and bring out their crazy side. Everyone has a crazy side but it takes the right people to bring it out. My classmate thinks I am nuts... I on the other hand think that I can bring out his nutty side as well.
I rather be the only one standing in the rain dancing than be one of the manufactured products of society. People only really think you're weird when you shine out. That is the main issue in the world today. Everybody likes to set norms to make us weirdos feel like we are outcasts. Well here is what I have to say to all of the people who judge me:
I am enjoying being a teenager and I will continue to enjoy my life because life is too fragile to try to be perfect in the eyes of others.
So I'm at the point of my life where i'm just sooo happy. I can smile for no reason because I have a reason. I am enjoying being a teenager for once.
Life is sweet and my friends are making it a very fun time for me although I don't really go out much. I am so thankful for those inspirational people in my life including my parents. Some people say friends carry you and don't bring you back but I say, true friends stick by you every moment of your life.
I haven't really found the bunch of loyal friends as yet but I have from now until to do so. I'm not in desperate need of a best friend or anything so I don't see what the big deal is. Best friends are hard to find. You naturally have to grow up with them to call them your best friend.
I had a best friend once who decided that I wasn't good enough so he walked out. I don't wanna do anybody else that. For now, I'm exploring like Reigna the Explorer. You never know what you'll find ;)
I of all people would know what weird is. Somebody walking up to you and kissing you randomly is weird. Somebody dancing at a funeral is weird. But my weird is kinda not so weird but more of a fantasy.
Last night I had a dream about Greg Onision, the youtuber. In my dream, I was hanging out with him, then later on in the dream, we kissed. It was so awesome.
I can't believe that happened. I didn't even go to bed with him on my mind. Maybe because I was so darn tired... that's why. Yes, I think Greg is a beautiful creature but he has a girlfriend named Taylor Elaine and I think it was awkward to dream another woman's boyfriend. At least it was just a dream and not real. I don't think I will ever meet Greg unless I go to his country so most likely what happened in my dream will not ever happen in real life.
Hope I don't dream him again tonight, although it would be very nice.
Having a crush is a whole different feeling by itself. It doesn't necessarily means that you love that person. It just means that you fancy them.
It starts off with the person being next to you most of the time or around you. Then everything they do just seems so cute. Their laugh, their smile, their jokes. It's a great feeling. Not everyone acts on their feelings however. Like me, whenever I have crushes, most of the time I just let it slide.
Oh fantasies. I just love them. They give me a chance to do what I cannot do in person, like kiss that cute boy in my science class. :O Can't believe I just typed that. Well, I was really thinking about it until I couldn't concentrate today in class.
At least I'm safe in my own mind and he cannot hear my thoughts. Cuz if he could, he would think I'm crazy just like everyone else does.
People just love to throw the term "YOLO" all over the place but they don't take the time to make sense of it. Its only one life you have, you cannot get back another when you die.
It's extremely sad hearing that twins died in a car accident in Trinidad recently. They were coming from a nightclub in the morning time when their car crashed and went in between two large pillars of the highway.
A nightclub. A place where drinking and smoking and other events take place. For me, these are not places I want to be in, going to, or coming from. I believe in Jesus Christ and all of those activities are of the world.
My prayer is for all the young people mostly (and old) to come to Jesus. Dying is one but not knowing where your soul will spend eternity is another. If you die with Jesus in your heart, you know you will be going to heaven. But if you don't, it's another story nobody wants to read. Just remember, good works alone do not get you into heaven. Prayer, faith, obedience and commitment is what makes one succeed spiritually.
So this summer I was really looking forward to getting a job to assist me in some personal needs. In other words, a girl needs money to buy stuff.
Unfortunately it aint happening. I tried all I can, sending out resumes, emailing resumes, asking around. Nothing. I'm not giving up so easy though. I can't.
At this point I think I will accept a simple job even as a waitress because I really wanna spend my OWN money and stop depending on my parents. It doesn't seem fair to me to be sitting at home when I can get a job and take responsibility.
I don't need someone to hold my hand throughout life. I need to start being independent and proud. I also wanna get into some volunteer work so I can add that to my resume as a bonus. I also just like the act of volunteering. Until I get that summer job, this is nothing but a summer flop.
Everyone has their own taste right? Well I know I have mine.
My kinda fella is one in a million and I am willing to wait for that person to come along.
First of all he has to be Christian. That's the most important thing to me. Someone who loves Jesus just as much as me will make a very good boyfriend and husband-to-be. Secondly, he needs to have a great sense of humor, be loyal and trustworthy.
CHEATING IS UNACCEPTABLE.
I can't deny that I'm attracted to guys that look like this:
However, his hair must not be too long or he should not be too high maintenance. I'm not even a high maintenance kind of girl so why should you, as a guy, be like that?
He has to have good breath. Kissing someone with bad breath doesn't make the cut. He has to also have proper hygiene and smell good. I'm not saying to buy out the shelf of Calvin Klein perfumes... Just shower twice a day at least.
I'm mixed, so I'm attracted to people of the same race also but that doesn't mean I have only one preference. So my guys will look like this...
However, he must not be too vain, too pretty boy, too girly or too insecure. Still not forgetting, he must be a true Christian.
It's not always possible to find the hot guy with the great personality but time will tell. I won't settle for less to nothing. True love conquers all differences and flaws but a girl can still have her dreams right?
Many people search the whole of the internet and stores just to find a product for their hair type and color. I am tired of searching for something to make my hair manageable.
I have mixed/bi-racial hair and it gets all frizzy and unruly when dry. I tried lots of products and even cut my hair to be able to style it easily but most of them have failed. Those people who work in cosmetic and beauty supply stores have recommended things for my hair but I don't think they know anything about bi-racial hair. Most of the people who work in those stores usually do not have a clue about many of the products they sell.
However, I took it upon myself to do my own research and look for a hair product online on Google Images and it was a success. I found a line of products that worked great for my thick lion mane. Without further delay, here are the products:
For shampooing and conditioning, Herbal Essences Hello Hydration:
OR Suave Keratin Infusion:
For heat styling, Profectiv Mega Growth Oil:
To slick the edges for a neat look after heat styling, John Freida Frizz Ease:
And if you want a 3-in-1, African Gold, Oil Moisturizer:
Let me break this down: This product can be used when blowdrying or you can use it on your naturally curly hair for extra moisture and smoothness. I found this product recently and I love it. Best thing about it, it's so affordable.
There are just some things that make you feel guilty. I can't stand it when I see these posts on facebook and I know that it is about me. You might as well tell me it to my face.
Everybody has their own way of dealing with situations like break-ups, fights and drama. My way of dealing with things is a more laid back approach and some people mistake that for not caring. I care about a lot of people who don't even know, but I am not like an open book. Sometimes you can't really tell if i'm mad, sad or happy.
I am trying to live my life and have fun while I'm young and there are just some things I need to let go in order to do that. But what if these things don't wanna let me go?
Moving on isn't easy but you can take a hint when someone tries to show you that they need something else. My advice to all those people whose loved one can't let them go: Give them time to heal and then they may or may not be your friend again. It's worth the try.
The most typical people are found on twitter. However, I am not one of them. This is just an illustration of the type of people you meet:
1. Those people who claim to be "TeamFollowBack" when they really just follow you and unfollow you the next day.
2. People who tweet about everything they do including using the bathroom, eating a sandwich and putting on their left shoe.
3. People who retweet and never really post any original tweets.
4. People who follow people who are hot in their twitter profile picture.
5. Celebrities who tweet to let you know how awesome their life is while you sit at home like a loser favoriting their tweets, wishing you were famous.
6. People who hashtag every single thing they say... Using the toilet #PoopyTime
7. People who look at facebook picture quotes and copy them as a tweet and receive tons of retweets.
8. Last but not least, people who stalk celebrities and do stuff to grab their attention.
I am glad I didn't leave things the way they were. I have mended what was broken and healed the wounds of separation. I believe that person's friendship means a lot to me.
For whoever is in a crisis with another or themself, forgive yourself first then forgive that person and make things right. Do not go to the extremes of blocking that person out. There is more to true love than just giving up. Once there is tomorrow, there is a second chance.
Finding someone who matches you is difficult and if you let go of someone who is right for you, you may end up regretting it. Try hard to be the person you want to be with. Put yourself in their shoes and take account for all your actions and feel their pain. Empathy. It's a short word but has a lot of meaning.
A weight has been lifted off, so now I can finally fly again.
Okay. I have decided that I am going to try doing a cover video for a song to post on youtube. It is very risky but at least i'll have somewhere to put all my creativity that I have stored up.
All the time, I have been on youtube, I realized that there are so many ways you can make a song sound like yours. I don't wanna copy anyone's song but it's a start to do a cover. From there I will get ideas to make my own music.
I believe music in this world is very corrupted so that is why I am getting motivated to make my own songs. That way, I know that I'm not singing for the fame and fortune but just for the joys of having a good voice. On a scale of 1 to 10 I'm probably a 6 honestly because there are a lot of great singers out there. I just need to keep working on my voice and sing a little bit everyday to improve myself.
