Missing You

I miss you so much.

Words cannot explain how i cannot focus without hearing your voice. I know your best friend needs you because he lost someone really close to him and i don't wanna be selfish but i need you too. I feel like i can't figure out a way to make your best friend feel better and myself at the same time.

These days i'm working a lot and that means a lot of time is away from you but i still miss our long phone convos. The last time i had one of those long convos was... I can't even remember. A piece of me has been slightly bruised but it can be fixed as long as i hear from you. 

Being selfless never ached so much.  

Pacific Rim Review

What I thought was a typical hero movie turned out to be an amazing thrilling adventure. Pacific Rim was better than most of the 'beast fighting movies'. 

In case you didn't know about it (which would be the case if you're living under a rock), this movie is about giant monster fighting machines called Jaeger who battle the giant sea beasts called Kaiju. The design of the Jaegers were stunning, each one so unique to each country and the making of the suits for the pilots was fascinating. 

As for the Kaiju, their design was amazing as well. Each one really looked just like a sea creature but so beautiful in a creepy way. Only people who are really freaks about special fx prosthetic and movie makeup will understand the passion of seeing an original creature on the screen. 

To everyone who haven't seen this movie.. Watch it! SERIOUSLY! There is so much you can learn about science and evolution. 

True Love: Explained by Reigna

It all starts off with eye contact and then a simple conversation. It can be on purpose, accidental or just a coincidence. (But we all know the best way is coincidental). 

Then there is that feeling of doubt, wonder and disbelief. Its like something is happening that is beyond your control and you can't help but give into the feelings you're having. 

Then there is the interaction and communication with that special person whether it be online, through the cell phone or in person. (Its much better in person).

And that's where the flow of mutual feelings and the relationship come in. The closeness, the comfort the respect and understanding is what builds the relationship stronger and stronger every time. Around this time, the wild/crazy things pop up, like peeves and habits which may seem cute to that person only.

After getting to know each other, that's where the longing for that other person is initiated. It's like you can't get enough kisses from that person and the hardest thing to do is say goodbye to them. 

Then there is the moment of fear. Yes... the fear of telling someone you love them first. Nobody wants a negative response to that but sometimes the feelings are so strong, that's all you wanna say.

Then the months and years past, and you grow so close to that person that you wanna take a big step. In this case, that's where the guy comes in.

And last but not least, Marriage. The most important bondage of man and woman, and the most beautiful. The ceremony doesn't matter... It could be 10 people gathered.. Once the love is pure and true, the rest is all stress free.. 

And thats pretty much it for the first steps of love. After marriage, it's all based on loyalty, trust, commitment and of course: LOVE <3

Stirring It Up

These days, my job is giving me just 2 days for work and i really need the extra cash for myself so i spoke to the head chef of the kitchen. He told me that he would have to interview me and took my number to call me.. 

I'm really nervous because i don't know what he would say because i have no formal training for the kitchen but i know a lot about science in cooking and i have a few chopping skills. I'm even more nervous about someone finding out that i want to work in the kitchen. I would feel so embarassed if chef says its not possible.. 

I don't know what to expect. I am just praying that i would get the job because i really need the push in the form of work.  

Being Happy

Nobody knows what it is like to be happy until they find that person who they can be themselves around. My best friend and I love to go out together to share thoughts, laughs and hugs.. He isn't like any other guy.. 

That moment where you feel extremely comfortable around a person in a way that you can do almost anything in front of them is the moment where your future flashes in front of your eyes. 

Happiness doesn't mean kissing and making out and being boyfriend and girlfriend.. It means making a start together and making a promise to each other. Friendship is very important because without it, a relationship would be a blindfold decision and it may not work out the way you want it to. I'm putting my trust in Jesus to strengthen my friendship with my best friend because I don't want anyone else to know me like he does. 

Putting My Defenses up

I have no shame in saying i'm afraid to fall hard for this dude. He is my really good friend but I can't take the chance without thinking. I kind of got of on the wrong foot with his best friend because i didn't introduce myself and now i'm having a guilt trip. 

I don't wanna feel confused but I am. Its pretty clear that we're on the same page but I just don't know how i'm stuck. I'm feeling to run away from this whole connection thing but i can't let him down like that. I don't know how to make my move. Should i let him bounce like a basketball? Cuz i don't wanna play him like a Ken doll.. 

I think fear of falling in love is the worst kind of fear there is... 

Top 10 Prettiest Women

Well its past midnight so i figured why not make a top ten list of the prettiest women? (Not in order though) Straight to the point...

Rachel McAdams  

Zoe Saldana

Jessica Alba

Jacqueline MacInnes Wood

Scarlett Johansson

Gwen Stefani

Shakira

Tyra Banks

Ashley Greene

Elizabeth Banks

So there you go... The top 10 Prettiest Women in my opinion.. Not teens or Little girls. 

Reigna's Hair Picks- Updated

So I have tried the moisturizing hair lotion "African Gold" and i thought i loved it but it wasn't really working the way i wanted it to. It was too clunky and when applied to my hair, would not comb through easily.

So i decided i was gonna switch to a new product (For the last time). So i found this little magic called Soft Sheen Carson Moisturizing Finishing Lotion and i have loved it ever since. The Humectant also works very well but the size of the bottle is just not fit for ALL my hair. This lotion moisturizes and shines and keeps frizz away for hours. It gives a silky soft feel and makes combing easier. 

After using this , you can always add a little Soft and Silky Gel to slick your edges and keep your curls in place without the breakage and damage. However these products should not be used with heat. 

These Clear Lines

Robin Thicke has blurred lines, but my lines are pretty clear. I got an awesome new best friend, who is caring, loving, determined and wonderfully attracted to moi .. 

I'm not gonna take big steps at this time of my life but I will definitely consider him when I'm ready to take that step. And of course, wherever there is something good, there are always jealous people around trying to tear down a good foundation but i won't let them. They don't deserve it. 

Working hard for something you want is always rewarding and for those people who think otherwise of me, I can't wait to prove them wrong. I'm gonna send some of my co-workers on such a hard guilt trip, they're gonna need more than a few beers after work to pick them back up. I may be speaking in riddles for now, but when i'm finished these lines will be as clear as possible. ;) 

3 Guys, No Thanks

So my sister's wedding was Saturday 20, and I met this good looking dude there who was one of the groomsmen. He seems like a nice person but he doesn't seem serious to me. Nate, my really good friend likes me, also a dude from my science class. 

I'm not gonna choose anyone at all. Why should I? I'm not ready for something short term and meaningless. I gotta know that person for at least a year before I become their "girlfriend" I don't think people are real these days. It always seem too good to be true. All I can do is just close my eyes and pray for that right person someday. For now, I'm exploring my options while keeping everyone happy. 

I'm not leading anyone on because "love" hasn't been thrown out by me before. Time will tell. .

It's Probably Because of Summer

I don't know why but i'm starting to like one of the guys who worked with me. I thought i liked that dude from science class but i was wrong. It was just an eye contact likeness. 

This dude is amazing. He is a gentleman, hardworking, honest, helpful, great at cooking, passionate. I don't even wanna go on cuz i might go into a trance. 

Hopefully he will accept my facebook request soon and we'll chat? 

Mysteries of My Heart

Hmm.. Sometimes i don't really know if i'm being delusional or myself. I feel a likeness for certain people who i talk to and i cant explain it. What is up with me and guys from my science class? 

One of them is two shy to talk to me in class and the other is too atheist and outspoken to give a damn. Should i let my guards down and be nice with boys or should i just draw a line and seem like a boring straight line kinda girl? 

I dont know why people just like to talk to me sometimes. I feel so happy knowing that my good friend and new 'friends' are there. My heart holds so many hidden passageways that i myself cant find. I try to not develop feelings for people but i guess some of the things they say to me make me like them. But liking someone and loving someone is different. Right now, the word love should only be used for Jesus until the right person comes along. 

Just to add, today i finally met a guy who is Christian, can cook and is hardworking! Wow. Hope he is still around when i'm ready for a boyfriend lol

Jesus Fills The Gap

Lost? Tired of searching? Alone? 

Jesus is the answer. He will never ever fail you even when times seem hopeless. I have learnt that there is much more to life than being afraid of what people think. Taking that big step makes you a bigger person and unequal to everyone else. 

Jesus keeps me breathing, keeps me hopeful, keeps me proud and confident and will always be my everything. I am no longer afraid of death or being alone because He is there for me. Church is my place of worship and our great teachers spread his name about and makes me joyous. I rather be in church than a nightclub any day. 

I have a big personality, sometimes too much for people to handle. But Jesus accepts me for who i am and never judges me based on my decisions. He just teaches me not to make the same mistake and to make him proud. I am a believer and he is my God.

You're A Mean One

So, there is this girl in my class who thinks she is above everybody else when she is clearly not. I don't wanna trash talk her or anything but I can't help but think that she is a two-tongued snake. 

She is in my science class and we're in a group together and today she thought it was okay to tell me I was boring and annoying. The amount of insults I could of told her, I would have surely sinned my soul. Well i held it together instead, being the mature person that i am and i just let it fly. 

However, i think this girl is jealous more than hateful against me. I know a lot of stuff and she is stuck in high school in her head. She even admitted that her spelling is whack. I don't wanna say that i'm better than her, cuz that would be wrong. All i got to say is: People will always dislike you just because you're doing good and having fun while doing so. I hope i never have to work with her again for the safety of my attitude. EVER.

My Mind = Blown

So there is this guy.. Like how many of my stories start up... but anyways. He shocked me. When we went to high school together he was the total opposite of what he is now. He was into the worldly activities and stuff but now he is a Christian and encouraging people to serve the Lord. 

I'm not complaining at all. I love what he is doing. But there is something scary that i remembered that isnt so scary after all. When we got our results from high school, he was so amazed that i passed all my subject that he told me, "Marry me" because of that situation. It was a joke obviously but now i feel happy. Wouldn't it be weird if a joke actually turned out real? ahahahahahahaha ._. 

He is much more attractive just by being a Christian. I'm not saying i like him, what i'm trying to say is... i admire him. he is so brave and not afraid to stand out from his group of friends who may not be Christians. Serving Jesus is the best thing someone can do and i look forward to having chats with this guy.

Can I Scream Now?

This science teacher gave us an assignment to do where we have to find things in life and bring out the science from it. I came up with a few great ideas and he told me that won't work. What the heck am i supposed to do? 

I feel like over the years my creativity has increased but i'm not getting the chance to show it. I am so frustrated right now and don't know what to do. Our group got a dumbass topic on herbal medicine which is total crap. I want to do something more fun.

My advice: If you have a science project to do and the topic sucks, scream! Don't hold it in. And after you are done with screaming, suck it up and do your part in the groupwork and get it over with.

Keeping It Real

My time hasn't reached as yet but when it does, I wanna be completely honest. I'm talking about meeting that dream guy. 

My kind of guy most likely will have the nerdy look, great personality and much more. I don't like introducing myself to a new person I like without letting them know what they are getting into though. The next person I meet, I wanna lay it all out on the table.

"Hi, I'm a Christian and I am not willing to change my beliefs for you or anybody else." A little too harsh? I wouldn't say. I think its good to let the person know that you're serious and not just looking for a fling. I want that person to know me very well... to be my best friend before becoming anything more than that. 

I don't see what's the big deal in saying what you wanna say. Everybody always hides something at first and then comes clean later on when things are going great. Well my friends, big mistake if you do that. I just want somebody to accept me 100%, around my same age and willing to see past my flaws. Meeting new people is always scary for me, but I will wait patiently for that special someone I will spend the rest of my life with. 

Hot Guys of June 2013 (Reigna's Picks)

There are some hot/good looking guys that I want to give out imaginary awards to. Here they are: The hottest guys of June 2013: 

Vincent Cyr from Youtube

Nolan Gerard Funk

Greg Onision

Darin Brooks 

Talk about eye candy!! More coming when I spot more hotties.. 

Get Out

This isn't a One Direction song but all I wanna say is: Get out get out get outta my head! 

This dude from my Science class won't leave me alone. He isn't stalking me or anything, at least not in person, but in my mind. I really wish I could stop thinking about him so damn much. 

Bummer number 1: He is an atheist which is completely opposite in what I believe in. 
Bummer number 2: He has very strong views and doesn't seem like the type of person to change for just some girl. 

I don't expect him to change his views because of me because I am surely never gonna do that for him. I'm not gonna be a Christian today and atheist tomorrow. Not at all. No matter how geekishly hot this dude is, I can't like him. That's it. But it won't stop his image from flooding my mind though.

The Guy in The Hallway

So I had this dream... a crazy dream that I didn't think would actually happen. Yesterday at college, I was sitting on the hallway floor next to my classroom which was occupied at that moment and this random guy in his nurse trainee uniform walked up to me, touched my knee and said: "I like your chair."

I giggled and awkwardly said: "Thanks" because I didn't know how else to reply.  All I can think about now is how pretty his eyes were and I didn't even get to look at them for long. 

Anyways, I always see this dude around the campus but never really pay him any attention. So what did this dream mean? Maybe the guy in the hallway will tell me someday... 

Too Much To Handle

Today in class, it made me realize how normal everybody else is and how weird I am. I don't hate being a weird person... I love it. It doesn't matter what he or she says. It's up to me to be myself or to pretend to be someone else. 

I am the type of person to make people laugh and bring out their crazy side. Everyone has a crazy side but it takes the right people to bring it out. My classmate thinks I am nuts... I on the other hand think that I can bring out his nutty side as well. 

I rather be the only one standing in the rain dancing than be one of the manufactured products of society. People only really think you're weird when you shine out. That is the main issue in the world today. Everybody likes to set norms to make us weirdos feel like we are outcasts. Well here is what I have to say to all of the people who judge me: 
I am enjoying being a teenager and I will continue to enjoy my life because life is too fragile to try to be perfect in the eyes of others. 

Happy Puddle

So I'm at the point of my life where i'm just sooo happy. I can smile for no reason because I have a reason. I am enjoying being a teenager for once. 

Life is sweet and my friends are making it a very fun time for me although I don't really go out much. I am so thankful for those inspirational people in my life including my parents. Some people say friends carry you and don't bring you back but I say, true friends stick by you every moment of your life.

I haven't really found the bunch of loyal friends as yet but I have from now until to do so. I'm not in desperate need of a best friend or anything so I don't see what the big deal is. Best friends are hard to find. You naturally have to grow up with them to call them your best friend. 

I had a best friend once who decided that I wasn't good enough so he walked out. I don't wanna do anybody else that. For now, I'm exploring like Reigna the Explorer. You never know what you'll find ;) 

I've Been Dreaming

I of all people would know what weird is. Somebody walking up to you and kissing you randomly is weird. Somebody dancing at a funeral is weird. But my weird is kinda not so weird but more of a fantasy. 

Last night I had a dream about Greg Onision, the youtuber. In my dream, I was hanging out with him, then later on in the dream, we kissed. It was so awesome. 

I can't believe that happened. I didn't even go to bed with him on my mind. Maybe because I was so darn tired... that's why. Yes, I think Greg is a beautiful creature but he has a girlfriend named Taylor Elaine and I think it was awkward to dream another woman's boyfriend. At least it was just a dream and not real. I don't think I will ever meet Greg unless I go to his country so most likely what happened in my dream will not ever happen in real life. 

Hope I don't dream him again tonight, although it would be very nice.

Crushes

Having a crush is a whole different feeling by itself. It doesn't necessarily means that you love that person. It just means that you fancy them.

It starts off with the person being next to you most of the time or around you. Then everything they do just seems so cute. Their laugh, their smile, their jokes. It's a great feeling. Not everyone acts on their feelings however. Like me, whenever I have crushes, most of the time I just let it slide.

Oh fantasies. I just love them. They give me a chance to do what I cannot do in person, like kiss that cute boy in my science class. :O Can't believe I just typed that. Well, I was really thinking about it until I couldn't concentrate today in class. 

At least I'm safe in my own mind and he cannot hear my thoughts. Cuz if he could, he would think I'm crazy just like everyone else does. 

Life Is Golden

People just love to throw the term "YOLO" all over the place but they don't take the time to make sense of it. Its only one life you have, you cannot get back another when you die. 

It's extremely sad hearing that twins died in a car accident in Trinidad recently. They were coming from a nightclub in the morning time when their car crashed and went in between two large pillars of the highway. 

A nightclub. A place where drinking and smoking and other events take place. For me, these are not places I want to be in, going to, or coming from. I believe in Jesus Christ and all of those activities are of the world. 

My prayer is for all the young people mostly (and old) to come to Jesus. Dying is one but not knowing where your soul will spend eternity is another. If you die with Jesus in your heart, you know you will be going to heaven. But if you don't, it's another story nobody wants to read. Just remember, good works alone do not get you into heaven. Prayer, faith, obedience and commitment is what makes one succeed spiritually.

Summer Flop

So this summer I was really looking forward to getting a job to assist me in some personal needs. In other words, a girl needs money to buy stuff. 

Unfortunately it aint happening. I tried all I can, sending out resumes, emailing resumes, asking around. Nothing. I'm not giving up so easy though. I can't. 

At this point I think I will accept a simple job even as a waitress because I really wanna spend my OWN money and stop depending on my parents. It doesn't seem fair to me to be sitting at home when I can get a job and take responsibility. 

I don't need someone to hold my hand throughout life. I need to start being independent and proud. I also wanna get into some volunteer work so I can add that to my resume as a bonus. I also just like the act of volunteering. Until I get that summer job, this is nothing but a summer flop. 

Dream Guy

Everyone has their own taste right? Well I know I have mine. 
My kinda fella is one in a million and I am willing to wait for that person to come along. 

First of all he has to be Christian. That's the most important thing to me. Someone who loves Jesus just as much as me will make a very good boyfriend and husband-to-be. Secondly, he needs to have a great sense of humor, be loyal and trustworthy. 
CHEATING IS UNACCEPTABLE. 

I can't deny that I'm attracted to guys that look like this: 

However, his hair must not be too long or he should not be too high maintenance. I'm not even a high maintenance kind of girl so why should you, as a guy, be like that? 

He has to have good breath. Kissing someone with bad breath doesn't make the cut. He has to also have proper hygiene and smell good. I'm not saying to buy out the shelf of Calvin Klein perfumes... Just shower twice a day at least. 

I'm mixed, so I'm attracted to people of the same race also but that doesn't mean I have only one preference. So my guys will look like this...

However, he must not be too vain, too pretty boy, too girly or too insecure. Still not forgetting, he must be a true Christian. 

It's not always possible to find the hot guy with the great personality but time will tell. I won't settle for less to nothing. True love conquers all differences and flaws but a girl can still have her dreams right? 

Reigna's Hair Picks

Many people search the whole of the internet and stores just to find a product for their hair type and color. I am tired of searching for something to make my hair manageable. 

I have mixed/bi-racial hair and it gets all frizzy and unruly when dry. I tried lots of products and even cut my hair to be able to style it easily but most of them have failed. Those people who work in cosmetic and beauty supply stores have recommended things for my hair but I don't think they know anything about bi-racial hair. Most of the people who work in those stores usually do not have a clue about many of the products they sell. 

However, I took it upon myself to do my own research and look for a hair product online on Google Images and it was a success. I found a line of products that worked great for my thick lion mane. Without further delay, here are the products:

For shampooing and conditioning, Herbal Essences Hello Hydration:

OR Suave Keratin Infusion:

For heat styling, Profectiv Mega Growth Oil:

To slick the edges for a neat look after heat styling, John Freida Frizz Ease:

And if you want a 3-in-1, African Gold, Oil Moisturizer:

Let me break this down: This product can be used when blowdrying or you can use it on your naturally curly hair for extra moisture and smoothness. I found this product recently and I love it. Best thing about it, it's so affordable.